Hey, its time for me to type my first rant of this blog. I'm very happy that my first experience of teaching is coming with a subject matter that I know nothing about and find dull. I have taken one psychology class in my life, high school or college. And that class produced the worst grade I have gotten in my years at Capital, probably due to my apathy and dislike of the subject. It is ever so fun to walk into school in the morning knowing that I'm teaching something that I taught myself the night before. I suppose that its good I'm teaching this, as I will technically be licenced to do so, but I really do question the grouping of high school psychology as a soft or social science. I would equate it to an art teacher having to teach shop class. Sure there are some drawings and colors involved, but they really arent the same thing at all. I wish I could focus on becoming used to being in front of a classroom without having to worry about the fact that I barely know what I'm talking about. The only saving grace is that I enjoy the students, and honestly want them to get to learn if they are interested. I learn the material because I want to be able to help them understand it if they chose. But there is no doubt in my mind that they would be better off having a teacher that cares and knows more about this stuff, its really not fair to them, no matter how hard I try to fake that I think this is exciting, important material and/or give them interesting examples or activities. Sure there are moments when you see you sparked an interest or something in a student, and that is a large part of wanting to be a teacher. But I can't help but think that there would be much more of those moments for me if i was teaching something I cared for or even knew, or that the students would have more of those moments if they had a teacher with those qualities. But I suppose you get thrown into situations like this all the time when you're really teaching, at least if you are a substitute. Which makes me believe that I will be doing a lot less substituting and a lot more librarian-ing if it comes down to it in the future. Teaching something you dont like simply isnt (capital letter, grand scheme of things for everything and everyone) Good.